the shirt is self explanatory, candy bar helps make it more real. not my first seibei shirt but oddly the only one that still fits because i got too small. hahaha!

no matter how much weight i loose or if i manage to obtain any of those ab things in my future, there will always ALWAYS be a chubby kids who screams for cake & candy living inside me. always.

these cadbury double deckers are my all time favorite and can be a little hard to find.. but secret? there is this little thing called the internet.. i hear they have all kinds of things available all over that place. 

this tasty candy is what it'd be like if a crunch bar and a 3 musketeers had a british baby. the british know their business when it comes to candy and with all my traveling means some favorites are foreign.

okay i'm a little happy these are hard to find here. i couldn't imagine these being near the check stand at the grocery store.. and good lord if they made a dark chocolate version! *mind blown*

note to self: never move to england... but totally move to england.

xox

rita

this table has been through a lot, i am not quite sure how it's actually STILL alive but it's been my main 'work' table for a while now. it was pretty ugly once upon time but after some ridiculous pink and a thick coating of chalkboard paint it now has a new life and a new purpose.

i man handle the crap out of this table! throw it down to ground, flip it on it's side. whatever and wherever i need it. always trying to work with what i have. i am no professional here. just a lady winging it on the daily. i don't have back drops or lighting sets. i have chalkboard tables and use a guerrilla lighting kit that was pieced together from hardware and craft stores.

testing and playing, this table of mine and i have been figuring things out together. sturdy, dependable and flexible to my needs. boyfriend qualities essentially.

speaking of boyfriend qualities.. you have to be down with some game of thrones if you don't watch.. really who are you and what are you doing with your life?! being slightly less awesome for starters.

i'm SORRY, i have strong nerdy feelings and am invested to these characters. so i may on occasion get just a teeny bit defensive.

xox

rita

p.s. happy sunday.. only 6 more months till new episodes. they looove to torture us.

"if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best" - marilyn monroe

every day is different and while i'm learning to find the good as often as possible, there are times when i just can not get it together. the crankiness creeps over and holds me too close. suddenly spiraling and everything feels hopeless.

those are days you need to go directly home, lock yourself in a bathroom and cry.

stop. call it a night, start again tomorrow and remember that YOU got this.

xox

rita

silhouettes in the sun.

hiding from myself in the shadows. dreaming about who that tall confident looking girl with the umbrella might be.

xox

rita

i don't know if I'd say it's my best feature but my most favorite is my long hair.

i might not always be able to tame these locks but i won't be parting with them any time soon. on a few occasions where I convinced myself it was a brilliant idea to do some chopping I've always ended up regretting and missing it. 

no physical feature should ever define you but I'm learning to take pride in the things that make me ME. so all of this hair everywhere is going to be sticking around for awhile.

I can't commit to hair color because I'm certain I've tried every one that exists. still waiting to have job where I maybe could test out some colors from the rainbow.. one day.

for now I've found my fit with a brown to blond ombré, BEST color choice for the indecisive. *raises hand* that's me.

xox 

rita

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this face, my photo challenge.

woman crush wednesday.

sixteen goes out to all the sweet women bloggers who post their daily duds on frequent basis. you ladies make it seem effortless and look oh so cool. a great encouragement to want to beef up my closet and to be more creative with how i put together outfits.

honestly i'd be happy if someone else dressed me every day. anyone want to apply? i can pay in baked items ..that's better than gum.

hrm ..a few more dresses in the future perhaps?

still always trying.

xox

rita

exercise and i are frenemies.

since we've established that this is a place of honesty.. i talk a lot of shit behind her back. she's just really rude sometimes, ugh.

through all the whining it is a necessary evil when you have baked goods circling you as often as i do. want that cookie? you better work bitch. (sorry, the new brit brit song is too catchy)

yoga is first choice but i will run, squat, and crunch this body of mine if it means getting to have one more cookie. i wouldn't say i'm at my goal weight, ew i just said 'goal weight', but it is a work in progress along with everything else.

life progresses whether you do or not. so might as well do rather than not.

xox

rita

how do we fix a case of the mondays?

red lipstick and avoiding eye contact. not in a rude way, but in a 'i can't deal with people juust yet' human flaw type apology if you will. you get what i mean, right? 

just keep on smiling. a coffee treat or a delish english milk tea help keep my smile going.

it's only day 14?? almost half way there.

anyone hanging in? feel free to drop a lady some advice or photog idea :)

i need all the help i can get.

xox

rita

this is the ridley.

she is a dainty lady baby.

kitty purry.

she is a fatty, but i love her. she is just the way i wanted her to be.

i never thought i'd be a cat owner. now here i am two kitties in and i couldn't imagine a day with out my furry friends. when you're a little sad or sick they always seem to know and give a little extra attention. friendly massage every once in a while as well.

xox

rita

(cat lady for life, dammit)

cookies on their way in!

if there wasn't an oven and a few baking sheets some how involved in my portrait challenge it would've been a huge mistake. i spend a lot of time with my oven.

recently i have been spending A LOT of time with cookie dough though. trying and making things happen from the very very beginning is exciting and nerve racking. the Sugar Ration is coming.

these are peanut butter and jelly cookies and they are becoming quite the fan favorite.

want to try one?

okay maybe i do have another brown shirt, but it doesn't count if it's exactly the same as the other one.

what's in your oven?

xox

rita